Thursday morning I was sitting at my desk with my legs crossed. I went to get up and my right foot had fallen asleep. Bam! Down I went. No warning. No tinglies. Just ka-blam on the floor.
At first there was no pain. My foot was completely asleep – like it wasn’t even there. Then it started in. I told myself it wasn’t that bad, even though I knew it was. I hobbled down the hall, into the bathroom, and quickly got my homeopathic remedies – Arnica & Aconite – best remedies for first aid.
Then I hobbled into the kitchen to get an ice pack, still telling myself it wasn’t as bad as I knew it was. Rather than waking my sleeping husband, I did what most women would do – I called my mommy. Not that she could do anything over the phone, you know, but just hearing her voice made me feel better.
After talking with her a bit, discussing more homeopathic remedies, healing magnets, etc., I had to wake my husband because I knew I was in trouble.
Hubster is a Reiki healer. Yep. My big, burly 6’4” 300+ lb. man does natural healing. Some other time I’ll tell you all about his gift and how many people he’s helped. He worked on me about 45 minutes.
Then he amazed me by being a wonderful nurse. (hasn’t been too good at this in the past, believe me.) Brought me ice, wrapped my ankle, brought me coffee, my laptop, etc.
At this point you may be wondering why I wasn’t going to a doctor. Well, I’m the worst kind of patient because I worked for doctors for years and it takes a major catastrophe before I go. I usually self-diagnose (I know, I know, I can hear you), see how things pan out, and usually everything works out okay.
And it is. Except I’m still hobbling around with a cane and a wrapped foot.
Here’s the deal. You always wonder, “Why did this happen?” I mean, I’m a firm believer in there are no accidents.
I’ve read Louise Hay for years. Her book, You Can Heal Your Life, says foot/ankle injuries have to do with fear of moving ahead. And there a couple of things I’m moving towards.
1. My appearance on Good Day Sacramento, January 26. Even though I’m really excited about being on TV again, there is a quiet little fear of appearing in front of thousands of people, having more work than I can handle. Just a bit of overwhelm, I guess.
2. Feng Shui. I’ve been wanting to write about feng shui lately. I taught classes for years, but haven’t written much about it on my blog. I finally decided to let loose and start writing. The fear? Judgment that I’m weird (which I actually am), and that I’m promoting mysticism (which I’m not).
I was raised with alternative healing and spiritual philosophies, since I was 12. Back in the ‘70’s, if you wanted to seem ‘normal’ you didn’t discuss these alternatives. You kept them quiet. That still resounds within me even though people are much more open nowadays.
So while I’ve been laid up in bed recuperating, I’ve had lots of time to just think about moving forward. It’s time for me to let go of these fears. It’s time to just be me. Shoot – I’m 52, for crying out loud. It’s time to let people think what they are going to think and just do my work.
My ankle is turning all sorts of colors today. It’s still wrapped and elevated, but I have my laptop and I’m writing about feng shui. I’m preparing to be on television. I’m gonna be okay with myself as I am. I’m moving forward.
Colleen
Marissa says
I hope your ankle starts to feel better! What a great sounding hubby you have – the Reiki healing sounds interesting. Happy Saturday Sits Sharefest!
Jesslyn says
What a lovely blog! Visiting from the Saturday Sharefest! I love how I always find someone unique above me. I hope your ankle feels better soon. I sprained mine very badly the first week in October… and I have a 2 year old and 9 month old twins (at the time)! It was 6 long hard weeks before I could fully walk on it. Here’s to hoping you heal very quickly.
Jesslyn
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Regina says
Colleen…oh dear..I hope that ankle heals fast and with all the love, care and attention you are getting I’m sure it will…just maybe not tell them for a day or so when it does so you can still get all the pampering ^_^.
It is so nice to meet someone as unusual and quirky as I am…and that’s a good thing. Congrats on the show…wish it televised here so I could see. I know you will do wonderful in all your endevours!! By the way….52 is young..I’m just a year behind you so it’s really young.
Get well Hugs,
Regi
G-Zell says
Oh man that stinks.. a few days ago I had to pick up my son from school he sprained his ankle. ugghhh I know how you feel.. I hope you feel better.
Feng shui… I need to get my house in order. My last house I made sure I followed all the rules and it was good.. this house ya stinks…. Need to get it together.
Have a great weekend.
Caroline says
Colleen, I’m so sorry to hear about your ankle! I wish I were closer so I could come and keep you company. We would have so much fun catching up on everything.
Can’t wait for your Good Day Sacramento appearance. You’ll knock ’em dead, I know! You are an inspiration to know.
Now, get better soon my friend. Hi and hugs to Marlin…
Love and prayers,
~C
Respectfully Yours says
OH bummer, at least you have your laptop which is great for us…hope you feel better soon. Happy Saturday Sharefest! Pop by for a visit sometime.
Luschka says
Oh dear. I had to smile. I could have written the first half of that! The same thing happened with my foot when I was 8 months pregnant. Fortunately I fell in such a way my belly was fine.
Hope your ankle heals quickly!
Thelittlebrownhouse.us says
So sorry about your foot! I always find that when something like that happens it is God’s way of making me slow down – cause I sure won’t do it myself! I hope you have a quick recovery, and a productive down time!
CrissTheTealCat says
Just came across this older post while doing a Google search on “Louise Hay – sprained ankles.” I was pretty sure it meant fear of moving forward, but wanted to verify. In the past year, I have done a bunch of healing from co-dependency, lost 43 lbs, started working towards my dreams & goals (finally at age 47!). Sunday I walked in my first 5k & sprained BOTH ankles! Both! Now I will keep working towards my goals & dreams with the mantra, “I move forward in live fluidly & easily!” Old patterns will not hold me back.
judith ann says
Yes I just sprained my ancle today and on level ground, so I figured this means something. I too never go to the doctor and choose to take care of myself first. Of course know the RICE , and here I am in bed with the computer on my lap. I hate being immoble, but that goodness for the internet could look up all the reasons as it was definetly something to learn from. So what did I find….slow down and be in the moment is one. I kind of like the one about not being balanced and adapted to the terrain, I think that is the one I choose as I was cleaning garbage alone side the road and thinking in Oregon this would never happen. I grew up with billboards of ,¨Keep Oregon Green and Clean. Now living in Chile and trying to get people excited about cleaning up where it could be a beautiful trail, and no one showed up, I was wondering what I expected to accomplish with my efforts.